07/02/2025
Ive been dreading today......Its been 3 years that I last saw you, last held your hand, last hugged you and told you I love you. It feels like just yesterday yet so long ago all at the same time.
Ive been missing you more than ever lately and wishing you were here. I wonder how different things would be and picture us as a little family. I recall you said in your wedding speech that 'your life was now complete - married and a baby' and its made me realise that you did the same for me - all ive ever wanted was a devoted loving family of my own and you gave me that< I wish id told you that while you were still here. There are so many more things I wish Id said to you :(
I talk to you often lately, asking your advice on things around Jack and I try to think about what you would have wanted for him. Hes just SO you adam!! He looks like you, he even stands like you, he laughs like you and strong willed and somewhat stubborn haha - yep, you (and me!). I certainly find raising this little boy very challenging sometimes and unforunately lately have had scares with him having seizures and now recently also diagnosed as Autistic.....its really hard babe but I promised you I would look after our little boy no matter what and no matter how hard some days, thats something that ill always do
I definetly have made some wrong choices since youve been gone and I want to say to you Im sorry. Even as I write this I can 'feel' you around me so much lately. Id give anything to just have you hold me in one of your amazing bear hugs or dance with me ijn the lounge room singing to me at full volume like you used to or even just to see you sitting at a pokie machine.....i can just picture you, that amazing smile.....I miss all of it, so so much
You were an honourable man babe, you really were - you may have been abrupt at times, but you were a good person with a good heart and I feel proud to call myself your wife.
I hope wherever you are that your happy and mostly I hope you know that I will always love you adam and as much as its not the same, I thank you for leaving behind a little piece of you in Jack. Hand on heart/my life I will always tell him how much you loved him and how he was your world.
I love you :(
RIP
Yeah Mate Yeah
