18/02/2026
So I'm learning to be myself not hide and in a bid to expose not just my hideous messy hair from swimming with kids but what's REALLY going on. Years of untreated anxiety from adhd have left my nervous system and immunity shot. Sertraline withdrawal could cause this but also if the Elvanse is too high that can also have a effect. Tonight's chaos of ticking and pi***ng myself entertained my kids for hours we all tried to guess when the next one was coming and do it in unison. I'm now exhausted as the panic attack started around 1pm then evolved into the tick dance around 5.30pm. There's no panic at the disco here. ✨⚡️💫
I've decided I'm gonna have a 15mg dose instead of the 30mg prescribed and only take it on the days I really have to focus. Especially sitting still to right. Sometimes a dictaphone just won't do. Anyway the journey continues. Today's highlight pi***ng myself! I had no idea it was coming the signal didn't come thanks god I was home for that bit. Unlike when I got caught out at Woburn safari on Monday. That was a total surprise 💫💫💫
We never know what life will throw at us the main thing is let's just fu***ng laugh through it. I know I'm going through this for a reason and it's my journeys never be ashamed of who you are ❤️🩷❤️
**k it
