07/04/2025
I’m sharing this again, can’t believe it was 4 years ago! Forgot to share yesterday ♥️
This a is a bittersweet day for me.
Three years ago I went to my godsons birthday party at a local family parkland.
I was SO brave & strong going, I HATED how I looked & felt about myself. Lockdowns had made this already socially anxious person terrified- of leaving the house, of meeting people, of getting the virus of letting people see how much I’d ‘let myself go’.
Just before co**d hit I was doing pretty well at weight loss with SW, I’d gone down to about 14 stone…at this moment, anyway, so much so that I got rid of most of my ‘big clothes’ (which was also a way to FORCE me to lose weight, ridiculous I know) then I was unable to see my eldest child & also really struggled taking care of the youngest 3, so I ate. And ate and ate 🙈
So I’d braved coming to the park.
Then in the play bit was a man letting his dog run wild even though it was no dogs allowed & filled with little kids - my 2 yo godson included. I politely asked him to just put his dog on a lead & it led to him shouting really aggressively in my face:
‘You fat c**t. I should put you on a lead. You fu****g dog. You fat b***h’
it went on & on, & of all the insults he screamed at me- literally inches from my face - it was the ‘fat’ that hurt me the most. I know I’m not a b***h, a dog or a c**t (mostly 😉) but I WAS fat, & having someone yell that to you over & over, in front of everyone was SO hurtful & embarrassing.
I removed myself & the kids from the situation & then said to my children ’right, that’s it, I’m having the surgery’. They were a bit shocked as although I’d mentioned it to them I hadn’t been insistent, it was more like a dream thought.
I started looking in earnest that afternoon & 51 days later I had my surgery.
BEST DECISION EVER
So although I was ashamed with embarrassment at the incident, it encouraged my decision, I’d probably have faffed a while longer if this hadn’t happened so I wouldn’t be where I am today. Healthier, happier, more joyful, excited about life. So thanks small man, you actually did me a massive favour 😂
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