15/07/2025
EPISODE 32
The third session wasn't easy but in comparison to the previous ones,it was better of.I used only one handkerchief.My counsellor continued feeding me with the bitter truth.You all know uchungu huuma,right??Taking in the truth wasnt easy.
I had kept on asking God the question Why my marriage had to end that way.But who is God that you should ask such a question???Since sikua napata the answers that i was seeking,i became bitter with God and his servants.Kwanza our pastor,nilikua najiuliza tu,mbona ile siku alikuja kumpaka mafuta na kumuombea?Ama alikua anajua what was coming na hakuniambia?Up to date,i never found an answer to the question,but i also stopped my quest for answers whatsoever.
Let me tell you why i stopped.
Romans 28:8.
All things worketh for good to those who love God and are called according to his purposes"
I kept asking myself if it was a good thing that my marriage ended the wasy it did,or the inlaws went silent on us.I never stopped thinking about it for a long time.
Funny enough,i tried understanding the verse but sikua naielewa,i bet mtu akiwa bitter kuna word ata ukijaribu huezi elewa.
It took me a long way to understand the meaning.
All things whether good or bad,no matter where and when and the circumstances abound,happen for a very good reason to those who love God.
I loved God back then and i still do afterall,but at that point i wasn't sure i did juu wueh,kupitia hako kanjia na huoni k**a mungu ni wa ukweli wasnt easy.
Sometimes when something happens hua hatuoni uzuri wa hilo jambo hiyo time.But later on ndio hua tunaona na haikuangi rahisi kuona.Its a painful process by the way,and i will be sharing that tomorrow.....