02/05/2022
💌"Dear mom, I finally get it." 🤱
Dear Mom,
For the longest time, you were my rock and the wind beneath my wings. But looking back, there were lots of days when we had our share of bickerings and misunderstandings, too. Sometimes, I don't understand why you were so overprotective of me, or why you were rather emotional and touchy, until I became a mom, and I finally understand why.
There were probably a lot of days when you were overwhelmed that you just wanted to lie down, sit or even rest, but you still chose to do the laundry or cook that meal, and now I felt guilty for not appreciating those little things. That sandwich that you prepared for me which I even put inside my school bag with a frown, or asking for another kind of food when you have already prepared something, I should have been more appreciative. Yes, admittedly, that was so selfish and childish of me. I never realized that everything that you prepared or bought is something that you painstakingly worked hard for, so how can I rather be ungrateful back then?
And yes, I was a bit stubborn, too. Longing for independence, I would go on adventures, at times going home late. And I made you worry, and I know made you cry, and I am sorry for that. Now that I am a mother, and have experienced how hard it is to take care of a child, all of a sudden I felt bad and guilty for giving you a tough time, and for that mom, I sincerely apologize. My realizations maybe were quite late, but nevertheless, know that, I see, understand and appreciate you more and more now.
I finally understand why you worry so much about me, for when I look at my baby, I feel anxious about his future and if will be able to provide him a good life. When he feels pain, I feel it all the more and I am scared too, if he will be treated right by the people around him in the future. I never realized how being a parent makes you fear a lot of things, but you face them anyway. You were protective, because you care, in the same way that I am to my child now.
And your love for me, that love that is so pure and self-less, it makes me emotional when I think about it. That same love that is so deep and overwhelming, is the very same love I feel for my child, so my dearest mom, I finally get you. There were a lot of nights when I look at him lovingly and stare at him awe-inspired, and ask myself: "what have I done to deserve this wondrous blessing?" I bet you had those moments back then, too.
I will be forever grateful to you, mom. And now that we are both mothers, our connection and bond is stronger than ever, and that I will forever treasure. I may be a mother now, but you never fail to make me feel loved and cared for, and that gives me strength to persevere on days when motherhood drains my energy and sanity. I sometimes asked you how you did it and overcame it all, as I am amazed by your resilience and courage, but you would always say that we, your children, are your source of strength and inspiration. Yes, this one I understand now as well, for when I look at my child, I know that I can conquer any fear, and do anything.
I finally get it, mom. Your love for me is my inspiration, and that is the same kind of love that I will shower my child with.
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