11/13/2025
Hey friends 💛
I just wanted to take a moment to share something from my heart. As the holidays approach, I’ll be slowing down a bit on posting and group activities. This includes responses to requests and things as well.
This season has felt far more heavier than I expected, it’s my first holiday season without Eli. As much as I love creating, connecting, and keeping everything running, I’ve realized that I can’t keep burning from both ends. My heart and mind need some space to rest, breathe, and process. I started this business roughly 2 weeks after his passing and never gave myself time to just get used to reality. I distracted myself, tried findinga purpose, tried fighting to keep his name alive. I just unfortunately cant distract myself enough anymore to pretend that reality is different.
I’m giving myself permission to slow down, and I hope you’ll all understand. I’m still here just quieter, gentler, and focusing on healing and family time. I wont be goinf anywhere, we still have orders coming in. We will continue back once i can figure out how to balance it all mentally and physically.
Thank you all for being such a kind, supportive space. This community means the world to me, and your grace during this time truly does not go unnoticed.
Please take care of your hearts this holiday season too. 💫
With love always,
Eli’s Mama 🌙
Here is Eli’s first Christmas last year, somehow these are the only pictures I took of him🤍. Unfortunately this is just the beginning of the hard seasons for me, we have back to back holidays. Once the holidays end, it’ll be one year. A full 365 days without him. I’m navigating it the best I can but it’s just not something I can keep pushing myself through. Im fighting this almost entirely alone and it’s just time that i figure out how to get myself out of this hole. To be completely transparent I feel like I’ve got one foot in the ground with him already. I’m losing myself massively in the grief. Have you ever heard the saying “don’t die with your dead”? That’s exactly what I’m doing. Physically here but mentally a universe away. All of that said, it’s time to stop distracting myself and find a way to get through it without pretending that everything is fine. It’s 8 months tomorrow, now longer without him than I got with him. I just need to step back and figure out how to balance my life. Grief, being a mother to two living and one not, taking care of the house, and running Eli’s business is a lot to do in a day. Usually my day looks like 7/8am wake up with the kids, breakfast, lunch, coordinate pickups, dinner, bedtime routine. 7/8pm pick up what I can. 9pm to 3am I pack orders, do sales, update inventory, pull orders/ put unpaid orders up, do live shows. 3-4am I finish cleaning. 4-4:30am I pack Michael’s lunch and get him up for work. By 5am is when I go to sleep and then back up at 7/8am. That’s a good day. That’s not a day where I go set with Eli, or a day that I stare at the walls and think about how much life should be different. Thinking about why him and everything else. Those days, I get maybe 30-45 minutes of “sleep” and go back at it in the morning. I’ll be back at it soon, just figuring out how to let go of what should be and accept what is.
Pickups that still need to be made
Tomorrow
Friday
5pm-8pm in burnside Ky.
No pickup on weekends.
Monday-Friday pickups are 5pm to 8pm.
Whatnot:
I have a live to schedule on the 15th
I’ll run $12 regular bamboo, $12 Christmas, and $18 blankets! After that, I’ll try to do one more for the month of November just to stay semi active. December I plan to do the same🤍. I may try to do a quick blanket show tonight if the kids go to sleep soon🤍.
Again; not going anywhere, we will be here silently preparing for our comeback and I don’t plan to leave for a huge amount of time. Maybe just a month or two. I’ll make posts periodically to keep the group active 🤍. Just need a little break to figure out things and then we’ll be back to normal!
