11/23/2022
To all my wonderful followers and friends, I am grateful for you! I am grateful that you trust in my skill and craft and allow me to create for you.
With that being said, I would like to issue an apology to all my recent customers. As you may be aware, I have been quiet on social media and my etsy shop is set to vacation mode. After the competition, I became inundated with orders and found myself stressed and overwhelmed with the higher volume and the constant disorganization in my mind (I do adhd which I have never really addressed previously). I found myself emotionally and mentally unable to complete orders and issued numerous refunds. Unfortunately, this just added to my current cycle and pushed me into a deeper depression which caused me to disengage further. (Most if not all of the refunded orders have been completed for weeks.) This basically continued until I was finally able to work through it introspectively.
Through this horridly embarrassing experience I was able to identify the weaknesses and strengths in my business and understand that I am definitely unable to continue the way I've been doing things. I have a creative mind and I understand now that I tend to hyper focus on creating while the business aspect (logistics, orders, marketing etc) is ignored. The weight of an increase in orders pushed my disorganization from a manageable chaos to a completely untouchable anxiety inducing nightmare.
I am pleased to say that I have been participating in business classes, and have reached out to business counselors, mentors and my own personal therapist in order to work through this and learn how to navigate a small business while dealing with mental health issues. I can't help but be grateful for this learning experience, though I could have done without the complete mental breakdown🙃.
I plan to reopen very slowly and I am now aware of my limit and will respect that.
So here's to healing and growth this Thanksgiving! 🙏