11/04/2025
solar return happy freakin birthday to me.... cant believe I made it to 38..... 40 only 2 years away. I used to be very immature and think my homies who passed in their prime were in a way lucky.. .because we who stay living in this lifetime have to carry the pain of them passing but surely i was not truly appreciative of how precious life is
and I want to smack baby Kayla for thinking like that but I hadn't yet formulated the skills to like an alchemist transmute my pain into something beautiful
I am truly thankful for all the trauma I've been through cause.... i can tell you
rock bottom aint s**t
thats like ... the tip of the iceberg that's only the concrete you sleep on or the earths crust.
don't ever think to yourself "truly my life couldn't get any worse?" cause i guarantee you the universe will humble you for not realizing that your taking s**t for granted "when you hit rock bottom you can only go up!" no no no you can hit the bedrock, then the molten lava and finally la her
the core.... but once you've been through hell as long as you keep strong you will gain your wings as a phoenix and rise above.... and then be able to alchemize your pain into something beautiful
like make some ink outta those ashes and give yourself a tattoo
or help others weather the storm who aren't as adept at trauma and be thier lighthouse
the moment you stop sitting there feel sorry for yourself and just accept things for how they are and you transform that trauma into something meaningful
the universe rewards you
and I literally appreciate the smallest things in life because my trauma has made me really appreciate life fully
unfortunately it seems we don't truly love or appreciate things until they are gone
and even certain things you may have disliked you shall miss once it disappears
so dont be scared of lifes hard lessons
embrace them. sit in your pain and meditate on how things even got to that state and learn from it
and consider yourself lucky to be able to....in a way level up in this game called life
become a survivor not a victim
or better yet a warrior
you cant make diamonds without pressure baby
if u gotta sink or swim consider me a mermaid π¦π¦
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