10/15/2023
I am a successful writer……., not editor 🤣🤣- Manifestation. These are my words.
For over 25 years, I dedicated my life to many others. I put myself last, I took abuse to be close and try to protect those I love. I had people turn on me for reasons I didn’t know. I had people intentionally use me and when they got what they wanted, they treated me like second class. The last 20 years, God blessed me to raise a son and I was clueless about doing it. It required me to make him a priority and no one else. Especially, since he was sickley with asthma.I still tried to show up for others as I could. But grief and figuring this parenthood stuff had a major grip on me. But God sent people in my life to show up and help me throughout these times. It was people I least expected. I asked God to help me to make sure those people felt appreciated, even if it was years later. I think I have been able to do that. I say all this to say, it’s my time. For the 1st time in my life I don’t feel guilty for loving ME the way I am supposed to be loved. Because like Keith Sweat said “there is a right and a wrong way to love somebody!” ( gotta put some hip talk in there somewhere lol). I was loving myself all wrong. Now, I will learn my self-love language on another level. I am a woman of God, substance and greatness no matter how much I play on here, no matter who I married, who I date or how I define dating, nor whom I co-parent with. I’m GOOD ground. And deserve the best that God wants to give ME. And I’m not giving any apologies for it.
