02/02/2026
Bit of a personal dilema. Don't mind me, just having a sook.
I am extremely grateful for the few I have in my corner helping out with this car the way they have because without them, I honestly don't know what state I'd be in. From family members lending me their vehicle so I still have a job to the the very few friends I DO have taking time out of their own lives helping me physically with repairs saving me thousands of $$$$ and time on labour alone.
But I am exhausted 😩 Not physically, but emotionally and mentally.
Every time I try to get ahead, it feels like someone takes advantage and I'm pushed back even further.
Mechanics. Sellers. Promises that turn into even more problems.
Money gone. Trust gone. Energy gone.
I’m doing the right thing, asking all the right questions (well i think I am anyway) trying to learn how to do things myself to save money, trying to save money on parts where I can, borrowing money just to get to the next payday because I'm literally running on 23cents in my account most weeks and selling off things to pay for parts, trying to be careful…
and I still end up feeling ripped off and defeated.
I don’t know how much more I can take, honestly.
Not because I’m weak, but because I'm constantly being pushed backwards and that wears you down you know what I mean?!
Some days the car isn’t the problem.
It’s the feeling of being drained, over and over again and the constant regret, the constant fear of "what next" "what else have I got left to sell to get X amount for this part"
I'm exhausted- I always seem to have the right words for others when they're struggling but now, I have nothing in the tank to offer myself in this particular situation.
And I'm sick of hearing the "sell it" "get rid of it" "buy a more reliable car" I love my car, I've spent too much time, too much money, put too much heart into it and without it, the goals I have for Bite Back Apparel will never happen.
😒
Rant and vent over 🙄