11/09/2026
Hey, I got something special to share.
For the past year I have been trying to self fund and start up a grassroots based facility that would create an environment for kids to explore hobbies and activities on weekends when the Rez doesn’t have much going on in terms of programming or a safe space to hangout. This is in hopes that kids (and their parents) can find something that sparks their interests before drugs or alcohol potentially do. I hold my own piece of land here on the reserve that I have been prepping in hopes something comes together but I can’t seem to get it off the ground.
I have been working 2 jobs for the last 5 months, consistently working 6 days a week. This side hobby is something I do for fun as down time, that’s why I don’t charge much, I try not to look at it as a job, but it ends up being one sometimes and requires a lot of reinvesting. I am also on call for a family friend’s catering company and pick up shifts when I can, and if you count being a mom and part-time friend on top of all that, then I guess that’s 5 overall jobs I tend to, to try and make this work.
I wrote 3 different papers for grants last year and got denied all 3. People do not want to help fund something that doesn’t exist physically yet, which is completely understandable. You got to do what you say you’re going to do and be willing to be completely transparent throughout the process.
I’m writing this because I’m going to try one more time to self fund this on my own. I’m saving what I can out of my own pocket to create a safety net to fall back on just in case and to eventually start the development of the space in hopes to have it operational by Summer (dream big, I know, but also, why not dream big?) lol.
Unfortunately, I contemplated making a go fund me, which kind of bums me out. I will exhaust every possible avenue before entertaining that idea again. I’m not one that typically asks for help, clearly lol. I got my first job 2 weeks before my 13th birthday. I’m not new to “working for it.” But idk what else I can do that doesn’t involve compromising my own values or burning myself out.
I know I said I was going to lay low until the holidays but in reality, I’m not sure I’m even capable of relaxing anymore lol. If I’m not active here, it’s because I will be writing papers and proposals or maybe dyeing socks as self care occasionally.
I hope that clears things up and gives a better idea of what I do with the money I make here. I’ve kept this a secret for a while and I do get discouraged occasionally, but I know what I’m doing will benefit others and I’ll keep trying.
P.s. if you made it this far, I just ordered new dye colours (it was a big reinvestment). They’re all pictured below. Super excited to share new sock colours with y’all before Christmas. Thanks for reading my long posts lol.
Cheers to one last shot.
Happy Monday ☺️
Marissa