03/09/2023
THIS is the power of clonazepam!!! After 3 years of NOT leaving the property, NOT being in a car, I FINALLY did it. As some of you may know I have been having a lot of problems with my vision lately. This has been going on since January, starting in my left eye. I could still see clearly out of my right eye until Wednesday of last week. My vision progressively got worse and I know I could no longer put off going out.
Bravely I took a clonazepam in the morning and had my eye Dr appointment for 12:45pm. The positives... I got in the car no problem. When we started to drive Glen put on the radio 90's rock. We drove down the road into South Barrie and I didn't need to ask Glen to pull over or stop. I even said how fast we got to the eye clinic. I went in to the clinic feeling no fear. Did all the exams they asked me to do with no problem. Then came a diagnosis...... I was in NO WAY expecting 😳 after doing the retinal scan the Dr pulled up the image on screen, keep in mind I could barely see. I'm legally blind in both eyes, this has progressed really fast, in my right eye it has had a stroke. There are currently other bleeds In my right eye. In my left eye there is a vein that has died off along with extreme vision loss around the dead vein...... Oh and there are bleeds in that eye as well.
At this point it can not corrected by glasses as my vision, in both eyes, are 20/300. Nor will eye drops help to heal my eyes. The eye Dr wants to get more testing and blood work to determine if anything can be done and where this is stemming from. She said there is always a chance that after the testing that my vision can improve somewhat however it will most likely not return to normal vision.
I am absolutely devastated by this diagnoses. I will be honest I don't know what the future of BubbaNut Handmade will be so I will not be taking any crochet orders until I can figure this out. Bellow are the pictures of me on my journey because even though the outcome was not what I expected, nor what I wanted, this was HUGE for me and I am extremely proud of myself for tackling an already scary situation (agoraphobia) but also making it through a even more terrifying diagnoses.
So needless to say I will not be on Facebook for a while. You can comment on this post (Glen will read it for me because I can't see it) if you have to send me a messenger message I do ask you to sent it voice message (microphone icon) as I can't read your messages. I am Grateful to have Glen who has typed out this entire message as I dictated it to him. I am also grateful to Crickette who gives me hope that miracles can happen. I am grateful to every single person who wished me well and who has sent meaningful messages during this trying time. I am Grateful to Georgian optical (Dr Gaw) all their staff who were so nice to me. Compassionate and caring even with a difficult diagnoses.