Shaiyanne Malik

10/13/2020

06/03/2020

if you were rude to me,
don't try to talk-
I will just walk
away,
don't say " we need to talk "
It's too late now
I will walk away-
enjoy your rudeness do .
It's just your way . But
tomorrow and today,
I will just walk away

01/07/2020

Ishq Aur Dosti Meri Zindgi Ke Do Jahan Hain,
Ishq Meri Rooh Toh Dosti Mera Imaan Hai,
Ishq Pe Kar Doon Fida Apni Saari Zindgi,
Magar Dosti Pe Toh Mera Ishq Bhi Qurbaan Hai.

02/22/2018

Why I Eat Alone
Abuse, A woman suffers many different types of abuse all through her life , in our part of the world , this occurs in a joint family system . When she is young she does not even know it is abuse . And Many years later Society asks......Why are you protesting now ?
Abuse is not always physical .The mental and emotional type of abuse is the worst kind it kills your soul. And threatens to take your life .
Woman is the Nurture , the homemaker . The giver of Sustenance , The Protector . But when She suffers abuse ,
starting from being a young married woman stepping from the protected cocoon of her parents home , into a new environment, new people, new mindsets , new demands she is not able to comprehend . It is then that the abuse takes its different forms . It begins with the snide remarks of the in laws and continues through to the husband and eventually tickles down to the children . Because she endures it , that is what becomes expected of her to do . If she ever gains the strength to protest , society is alarmed , the question on everyone’s lips becomes Why now ?
You want freedom , the freedom to live with only the family you created , with your husband and children....... Why now ? You have endured it for so many years ........Why now?
Is there ever really an answer ? no there is none . Does she even have to answer ? No she does not !
Maybe she doesn’t want the slices of bread she eats at the dinner table to be counted and remarked on constantly by her mother in law ?
Maybe she hates the stress of constantly monitoring while at work, if her perfect planning of her children’s pick up and drop facilities are thrown asunder on the whim of an in law to go shopping or to a coffee morning or a bridge session . It doesn’t matter if two drivers and 4 cars are available. The one scheduled to go for the children must be used on a whim , or an act of dominance.
Maybe she does not want to ever see the face of her small child peering pathetically out of the school window when she eventually arrives an hour and a half late . And everyone has left .
There are so many other things , things considered inconsequential in our society . Things she is constantly told to ignore
So what ? if you are summoned to sit with visiting guests while you tutor your kids , if you refuse to come you are branded as the “bad bahu “. ( daughter in law )
So what ? It’s not a big deal.
So what ? if Lunch time is manipulated such that you arrive from work to empty dishes and dirty plates and cold food on the table .
So what ? if you have never had a routine meal with your family because some spanner is always thrown into the middle .
Maybe it’s your own fault that you cannot manage your family life and your work life simultaneously?
So what ? if on the dot of when the Dinner is Served , prayers are suddenly remembered to be offered , so now you wait! your children eat and go to bed , After tucking them in you again return to empty dishes , dirty plates and cold food
So what ? if you want to scream out ..........Stop ! Stop interfearing in my life . Let me lead my life on my terms . Let me eat my meals with my children . Let me be free !
But the tragedy is that this becomes a pattern . Your husband and children see this as an acceptable norm of behaviour .
The Mother does not have to be included at meal time . The Mother in Law has set the Pattern of Abuse .
And many years later
The Husband eats his meal in front of the TV
The children eat in their rooms or with friends and the Mother is left to her own resources . The pattern is set !

10/29/2017

Choice
“Attitude is a choice. Happiness is a choice. Optimism is a choice. Kindness is a choice. Giving is a choice. Respect is a choice. Whatever choice you make makes you. Choose wisely.“As much money and life as you could want! The two things most human beings would choose above all - the trouble is, humans do have a knack of choosing precisely those things that are worst for them.” You cannot control what happens to you, but you can control the way you think about all the events. You always have a choice. You can choose to face them with a positive mental attitude.”
Or you could blame someone else when your choices go wrong , best to blame your mother for everything. I find I do that a lot.... It gives me a lot of solace . The mother who left me when I was so young that I could only fantasise about the real her, the mother I never knew, The mother I only dreamt about .......Was her leaving me her choice or her destiny, I will never know......so I will just sit back and blame her for everything. Anything good that happens....it must be her blessings.....anything bad....it's all her fault , I make the wrong choices because of her, I make the good choices due to her.
“I find the best way to love someone is not to change them, but instead, help them reveal the greatest version of themselves. I never had anything to change from so I made a beautiful monster in my mind ......The monster I blamed for everything , And for me this attitude in my life has surprisingly never let me feel alone . She is always with me, around me ....at least in spirit.
I learnt very early in life that I could get away with anything. ....I suppose you could call that being spoilt.....I just had to play the victim card until one day my sister shook me up "You are not the victim of the world, but rather the master of your own destiny. It is your choices and decisions that will determine your destiny.” You walk through life like an Alice in Wonderland .You imagine everything to be a fantasy , life is not like that don't sit around to smell the flowers , there's plenty out there for you to run and jump too.
We don't get to chose what is true. We only get to choose what we do about it.” And then there comes a time in your life when you have to choose to turn the page, write another book or simply close it.”
A quote from Alice in Wonderland
“Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?'
'That depends a good deal on where you want to get to,' said the Cat.
'I don't much care where -' said Alice.
'Then it doesn't matter which way you go,' said the Cat.
'- so long as I get SOMEWHERE,' Alice added as an explanation.
'Oh, you're sure to do that,' said the Cat, 'if you only walk long enough.”
That's my Choice, I choose to walk long and lithe, I choose to live my life in a rainbow . I choose to fall in love, I choose to only see the positive, I choose to Love. I choose to Admire. I choose to Dream . Happiness is my choice.

01/27/2017

From the book Despite

"She was a simple soul , With dreams and ambitions, an appreciation of the finer things in life. Born into the lap of Luxury, a Silver spoon in her mouth. She had everything her heart desired , in her fathers home she was a princess, never questioned never stopped, spoilt by those who surrounded , protected because of being a motherless child ......she never actually knew the true story of her mother, all she knew was , that it was the story that Romances were spun from. She never really missed her, there were plenty to do her bidding and she imagined that it would be the same for the rest of her life, and eventually it was.
There was a transitory phase in between when she married the prince of her dreams, she drove into the sunset with him with promises to live happily ever after. After a while as normally happens in all good romances, she felt suffocated , the constant nagging, the always being told what to do, the 24 hour monitoring....do this......do it this way....don't do that ...don't do it that way, read this , watch this, meet them, don't meet them, say this , don't don't say that, sleep now, wake up now........it went on and on and on .Till eventually she rebelled !!!!

01/26/2017

I hide myself behind a veil. Who are you to judge me. I am free.....it is my choice. I hide myself. I expose myself.....who are you to even comment?????

12/15/2016

Say no to Drugs.....Cricket Match between Anti Narcotic Force and Celiberties......A great match for a great cause.

12/01/2016

The Song and The Dance....Never ending music in my heart. When my senses feel low i close my eyes and I am lifted by the music which surrounds me

11/28/2016

Doing what i love.....shooting in an archalogical site . Old Jain Temple in Nagarparkar

09/03/2016

Release Your Soul Let it Soar. The heart knows where it will settle.