02/05/2026
Bismillah
Day 30
Finally, This is my last day challenge Lately I've been looking through old albums from when I was in college. At that time my sister asked why you were happy when you were in college, did you fail to move on? I said there was no problem, I was just taking his energy when I was feeling enthusiastic and ambitious, I was feeling the energy that was at the peak at that moment.
Looking back on something I'm proud of, I think that's fair enough, because all this time I've been confined to something and a label that wasn't really mine.
I can still feel how it felt to be a representative of the campus as an Arabic debate candidate at all national campuses in Indonesia. At that time, our first meeting was at the University Indonesia, It's a pretty well-known campus and I still remember there I came as a male representative and I was the only woman representing it and I was in the right corner at that time, there were only 3 of us from our campus and all of them were women, none of them wanted to come forward and I was the one who was appointed.
This journey moment was quite dramatic because it took a long time to get there, Dendi, at that moment I didn't feel anything even to the debate event held at Jakarta State University, even there I still didn't feel anything. Because the most important thing for me is that I finish college and make my mother proud. But at this moment I have my own dreams and I want to achieve them but I want to take my energy when I am active on campus. I know it's been a while but it seems like the last time I felt like my life was in that situation, I was paving that new path to create my new narrative.
Hello Samy my past, now I will continue everything with a new name Assana a feminine woman who knows when to use her masculinity. Thank you for being strong so far, You have fought so hard even though you have no energy but you always look strong, I am proud of you, I love you, I accept you as you are and let Assana be the figure that Who is replacing you temporarily, relax, enjoy your life and be happy. I am here to protect you, you are not alone, you are safe with me. I promise I won't give you any more pain