05/06/2026
The crying has stopped. I don't sob at night anymore, and I don't look sad to my coworkers. But that’s the scary part. The acute pain has evolved into a permanent numbness. It's the way I don't buy certain fruits because you loved them, the way I avoid driving past your hospital, the way I automatically skip songs that talk about home. Missing you isn't a storm that passed, Mom. It's a permanent rearrangement of my entire personality. I am surviving, but I am living in a world that completely lacks flavor. 🕊️⛓️