04/08/2023
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I am not sorry for putting
you on hold and responding
to my needs.
For ignoring yesterday's
plaintive script and
Dawn's tantrums.
I do not apologize.
Assume my plea for
candor.
Roll my contrition like a
blunt and smoke it.
I am getting high on
me anyway.
I am not sorry.
I have been taking care
of everyone but me.
Respond to your Clarion
call, I have.
I claimed you when the
world declaimed you.
Took you in and called
you, home.
Created masterpieces
on your shattered painting
and made you whole.
While I faded away like
the picture of Dorian gray.
I wore your cicatrices on
my wrist.
Tore up every feeling of
doubt just to make your
life alittle easier while
I stirred tears of stress in
my tea cup.
Woke up in the middle of
the night with the bags of
stress under my eyes just
to carry your baggage.
For every complaint, I listened.
Paid attention to your
tantrums with the faith of a
priest during confession.
Yet still... you take, take
and take.
I am not sorry for putting
my phone down today.
For choosing me amidst my
affliction, and your
conflictions.
For ma********ng to
my aura.
I have been starving!
Stressing to your free press.
Pressing me like linen.
I won't apologize for putting
me above your needs.
For saying No.
For saying, I can't.
For saying, I got personal
things to do.
For saying, Not today.
When all I want to do is
part my fat thighs and
breathe!
I am not sorry for
choosing self.
For taking care of me.
For focussing on
my mental health.
Me.