20/04/2026
I often need to remind myself to “fly”— which means first love yourself.
As love comes in many forms of expression, at moments it can be a challenge to act on it. In order to act on it, we must recognize it firstly.
In the essence, I think, it means to listen, to honor and to follow the purity of your own heart. Which can be different in any moment, all depending on a (life)phase, situation or dynamic.
Holding space for what you truly need, can be hard. At your worklife, in your social environment and even in your family, or other intimate relationships. Starting with yourself, always.
Currently I am challenged to pass a very deep process. Facing myself in the mirror 🪞 and meet reality over illusion. I need time for this, as much as I will (which I don’t know yet).
In the past 9 years I mostly didnt have time to take a pause, and truly meet myself in the storms of life. I overstepped boundries, ignored feelings, numbed myself as mechanism to survive. In 2021 life changed, but just some first cracks. And after 2023 it cracked again, deeply. Old ways didn’t work, as I didn’t recognize it as my truths no more.
This moment, I want to be there for me. As I allowed to love myself mostly, deeply and firstly—
I can only hold space for others, if I can hold space for myself. And I need all of myself now.
I know by now that every storm will pass, and life will always start blooming after. On other words: The soil needs s**t to create the most beautiful roses.
Facing mirrors is uncomfortable all long as there are still parts that don’t life out it’s truth. So let me dive. Deep.
And after, I will be back. Transformed, in deeper connection with the purity of my own heart. And life by these codes to serve myself (first) and be at service of you (and the collective we all take care of) ✨🕊️✨
Let me practice what I preach. Over and over again I will be challenged and invited to grow more back to my essence.
Lots of (self)love,
Ang