07/02/2022
Legitimate concerns for my health: i have come to say the words "signs of aging" as a half meant joke whenever i'd easily feel tired from simple activities.
I have come to accept that one's energy my age is no longer the same when i was half my age. HOWEVER, what alarms me is this: i still have the energy and determination for work. I can go at it on weekdays from 9 to 9 (between home chores and actual work)
BUT
I no longer have the energy for proper rest and taking care of my own wellness. Too tired to work out, too tired to spend time with my loved ones, too tired to read a book, to attend my language classes...etc, etc.
DOES ANYBODY ELSE FEEL THIS WAY?
One might argue that perhaps the only rest one really needs is sleep. It can be, but a person also needs to feel enriched in activities that allow her/him to learn new things beyond the scope of what is "work".
I began to wonder why is it that am ever so willing to lay down my entire vitality for work to the point that i no longer enjoy my breaks enough. I no longer enjoy slow mornings on a weekend. I no longer get to talk to my partner at night because im always connected online. Why is it i feel guilty of not working?
It all boils down to being mindful and living a life well balanced. From today on, i want to regain my energy and vitality back so that i may enjoy my breaks as much as i enjoy and love working. I really do love what i do and i consider myself very lucky that i am passionate with all my projects and career track.
But an empty cup can no longer pour unto others.
My hope is that I no longer have to say, "i feel too tired to mindfully relax" and just be.
Mindful relaxation.
Now that's an amazing concept.
Off to sharpen my saw on a daily. Forever and always grateful for every blessing. May I be a good steward of this life. Everyday is a fresh start to be better. ♡
p.s. putting this out there in case somebody else feels this way. Let's be mindfulness buddies!🙋🏻♀️
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