AngelEyes

08/31/2026

Journaling

My right foot is hurting so bad today. Oh, this is awful. I can't even tell anyone. At home I have a porch glider, a rocking chair, and pacing to alternate my autistic stemming to keep from hurting myself. I also take a medication 💊 for neuropathy which has always kept my right foot from hurting. I have been denied that medication every since I entered the bop add that to the increased amount of time I spend pacing which is pretty much constantly since there's nothing available for rocking and I'm seriously hurting 🙃. If I told anyone they would simply say, well stop all that walking. Stemming for an autistic person is as necessary for survival as breathing is to a neuro typical person. You wouldn't tell someone to stop breathing because it hurt. No, because they would die.

08/31/2026

This is me just talking to you. Please stay objective and out your feelings as best you can. I'm gonna tell you what I see what I'm capable of doing and then ask you for a solution that is in the realm of who I am that can be applied. It's super uncomfortable for me to be mean. This is what you want from me though. No lie it's absolutely what I want from you. However it's super comfortable for you. It's who you are. It's not who I am. You want it to be who I am, but for me to be mean a situation has to escalate into something ridiculous before me being mean even becomes an option. Now here's where full disclosure comes in. I don't have to tell you this part. I could leave it at this and pretty much win by omitting the rest, but it would be dishonest, but it also invalidates part of what you're feeling that is actually valid. By being kind in my response not only to this guy but all of them they feel safe to check back in with me and you don't like that. I like that. Every thought I have incorporates a just in case clause. What if I needed just in case. Just in case you be tripping and I need a way to make you see the trip so I keep people checking in just in case you need a lesson. Even if you had been perfect our entire relationship that's just how I think so it isn't entirely about your bu****it. I am constantly scanning for possible future bu****it and keeping options for how to deal with that. Now keeping in mind I can't be unkind yet it's also strategic I don't know a fix. I still can't be unkind unless it's warranted in a big way because I don't believe in being mean unless absolutely necessary however my kindness is also a strategy. That's complete honestly and full disclosure.

08/31/2026

I was having a conversation last night it's amazing I have almost been out a year I can't believe it in 2 months I'll have been out a year and 2 more to go till I'm off !! Thank you for everyone in my corner it means the world

08/31/2026

Good morning AngelEyes nation it's Monday!!

08/30/2026

My baby just got thru with the budist temple and wanted to share with y'all her morning

08/30/2026

Good morning AngelEyes nation!!!!

08/30/2026

08/30/2026

Had to get my self some good grub panda express

08/30/2026

Journaling

Everyone who meets me loves to tell me who they know that is autistic. One of the guards just told me that his step son is autistic. I always ask, high functioning or non verbal? High functioning autistics are generally difficult to spot unless you actually live with one. They generally have a very high iq and begin masking in very early childhood and only unmask at home where they feel safe. Masking is a survival instinct. You wouldn't even know if you met a high functioning autistic if you don't live with them unless they are older experiencing autistic burnout where masking unravels. Or we just don't gaf anymore 🤷.

08/30/2026

SHE SAYS

That coffee ☕️ croissant donut 🍩 is to die for! Oh my grand design 😍!