08/18/2018
“Choose happiness” can sound like the most trite thing in the word to say when you don’t really, deep down believe that it’s within your control. Who wouldn’t choose happiness? Truth is, I was letting things bog me down, rather than choosing happiness, I was letting things rattle me, focused on problems rather than solutions. Feeling powerless against anxiety.
My happy place has always been silence, and I just couldn’t find the quiet anymore. Life felt too busy, and too noisy to hear my soul screaming to find simplicity again. I thought I’d find satisfaction though meeting goals and doing special things. The mundane started to feel like absolute drudgery. I was placing higher priority on hopes than realities. Not doing the things I must do, totally absorbed in things that felt important. That dissonance is destructive. I was all mixed up about what is actually important, and I’m kind of ashamed of that, because I know better. Evil is always waiting at the door for you to let your guard down. Always there, cunning and ready to exploit your best intentions.
Today I chose to be happy picking up toys. I choose not to be angry at the kids for leaving them on the floor. I choose not to rush through it to get to something better. I assumed my task and let my mind wander while I did it. Something really special happened, creative thoughts passed though my open mind like a breath of fresh air AND my house got picked up. Stop fighting, stop over complicating, stop chasing things you think will make you happy and choose happiness right now, where you are, in what you’re doing. I tell you the truth the dreams you have for your life will catch up to you. Choosing happiness, attracts more happiness. ❤️