07/19/2021
I lost my dad yesterday, words can't describe that kind of pain. My first instinct was to think of all the things I wish I would have said or done differently, but in the end I realized I never could have ever said or done enough. As I walked to my Father and burried my head in his chest and sobbed so loud I wanted God to hear my pain. I realized in that moment, that the only thing that mattered is that he knew how much I loved him and I knew how much my Dad loved me and in the end that's all that mattered. Members of my family reached out to tell me of all and how much he had done for them, or how he was their favorite everything because of the one time. So many things I didn't know and will never know how much he effected the lives of others. He was far from perfect as we all are and Jesus Christ, did that so we wouldn't have to, but he was a great man of God's own heart. I love you old man and I will look up to the sky and say it loud as much as I can, hoping it falls on your ears. I love you Dad Rest In Peace.
God has a plan and unfortunately we don't get to approve it.
