04/07/2024
It seems pretty rude to pop up here but it’s what you all deserve.
I have obviously gone MIA for the last year and in my defense, rightfully so. 2023 started out to be my year and quickly turned into the year I’d be fighting for my life.
I had what most would call a “mental breakdown” in the late of 2022 and had an outburst that in some ways was warranted, but my behavior led to unfortunate events for my family and I.
My husband and I were basically in limbo, in survival mode and still processing what had happened. And when we seemed to have started to, we made a pretty stupid decision that would ultimately lead to the downfall of MamaCitas.
I ended up living in my car. Separated from my family. I felt like I was being treated as some low life drug addict mom that couldn’t see her kids but no. I was broken and had an outburst and said some truthful things in very hurtful ways and was in turn slandered, cast out and treated less than a dog. I missed my kids. I felt like my husband had left me even though he didn’t. I felt myself going insane.
I found out I was pregnant.
I felt my mind leaving myself.
I asked for help and checked into a behavioral facility.
I unplugged from everything but my family and close circle and started to let myself be open to healing.
I am far from being completely healed, but at least I’m letting myself get there now.
I’m sorry that I had to disappear. Do I still tear up at the thought of pouring some mom shots for you tired beautiful people? Every damn time. And I will forever because MamaCitas was my way of giving to people, especially mothers who needed that caffeine boost because they’re raising the next generation and kicking ass at the office or at home.
I’m going to miss it forever.
But through all that pain and tears I gained a beautiful baby girl, Lydia. But for now, this is goodbye..to MamaCitas Homemade Goods. I was created to create so this is not the last you’ll hear from me.
Just the last time I’ll refer myself to as your Local Caffeine Dealer.
-Arianna