ChaosLily Creations

04/20/2026

Willow, 3.5 weeks old, 1.75 lbs, decided to take a nap. 😭 I'm stuck. I have things to do but.....but I'm stuck. 😭😭😭🥰

01/30/2026

Small updates:
First: I am participating in the national blackout being attempted today, January 30th, and the Etsy shop is offline until the 31st.
If you have to ask why, you haven't been listening.

Second: I have been on hiatus for far longer than I've intended to be. Life has been... difficult. Recovery has also not been easy. However. While I am not certain...I'm hoping to have this mess back up before too long.

06/04/2025

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03/03/2025

11/15/2024

Hey peeps! Still alive here and doing my best. I'm continuing to keep myself on break so I have time to continue to play catch up on various things, and consider a few other things as the board shifts.

I'm okay. Weirdly okay, really, but okay. Promise.

In the meantime, I have thrown this together, just barely --

09/13/2024

Cutting for using circle cutting tool. Aside from wishing I'd found this years ago: may I suggest the bumps on the cutting tool are made a different color, to make lining up with the channels easier?

07/17/2024

Hey all.

I've been...basically silent here for a hot minute.

Things are...in some ways better, in some ways worse. I've been trying very hard to not collapse under it all. But, that's no excuse.

In pursuit of that goal, I've been a burden. I've been thoughtless. I've been a pain. I've been a bitch. I've been less than present when, where, and for whom I should have been. I've done some things I'm not proud of. I've also done some things I wish I saw a way out of, if I'd just been a bit...better.

I'm sorry.

It's been a long time coming, but, for whoever's reading this - I'm formally putting myself on break. I have a lot to do, both to play catch-up for people that have been waiting on me for entirely too long, and...some work to do on myself.

Honestly, if I could back out of my vendor table at FanX, I would right now.

No need to react or comment or message. I'm just ..letting y'all know.

I'm not okay.

But, hopefully, a step at a time, someday I can be.

05/15/2024

Third of the way already.
Y'all.
Thank you.
I'm sorry.
On the good news side: I got another screening interview with somewhere for tomorrow morning, within an hour of applying. It's through a staffing agency, so I don't know who the client is yet, but...that at least indicates it's not an MLM.

At the encouragement of some loved ones, I have some personal cards to put on t… Ariel Benham needs your support for Ariel's Housing Crisis: One Last Mountain

05/15/2024

Okay. Here we go.
Things are not okay.
I am mentally and emotionally in a much better place than I was this time last year, bless...everyone, who's had a hand in keeping me going.
But there are lingering financial issues that, after the last month without a full time job and unemployment still in limbo, are rapidly reaching a tipping point.
Details in the link.
I have PayPal and Venmo if you'd prefer over the GoFundMe, but I will be keeping a record of everything there.
Venmo:
PayPal:
I'm sorry.
Thank you.

At the encouragement of some loved ones, I have some personal cards to put on t… Ariel Benham needs your support for Ariel's Housing Crisis: One Last Mountain

04/21/2024

Edit: there is one failure state. If I make it to in person and fail to make the outfit that is a failure of my follow through.

As of last night I have officially entered into The Geekbound Fashion Challenge with a look based on an imagined formal/dress uniform for a helldiver (pictured below with the massive assitance of ChaosLily Creations).

And I realized today that there is no losing state for me in this.
If I don't make it to the in person/full outfit submission part then yes it will sting a bit as I feel I have a solid foundation to work with, but I didn't pay anything and I did something I've never done before.
If however I make it to the in person round then I have succeeded at something I've never tried before and get the challenge of bringing the piece to life. Success.

If I make it to in person and win something (this feels *very* unlikely) then I have very much succeeded at something I've never tried before, succeeded at something else I've not done much of (sewing, especially something that isn't a basic pattern, and whatever I have to do to get that helldiver logo on the shirt), and had it recognized by people whos work I admire.

So, yes, hope to make it to in person, but there is no state where I have failed.

Oh and finally named it "Democracy's Finest" which narrowly beat out "Ensurer of Liberty's Dignity"

03/15/2024

pass it on