04/07/2023
I got these amazing tarot cards in my favorite bookshop in Merida! (Can't wait to go back! 😭)
Thought I'd start normalizing and demystifying tarot cards each day since I do a reading anyway! No, they are not Satanic or "of the devil" (poor Lucifer). They are a great way to tap into what you are feeling. 💖 Like a beautiful writing prompt!
Queen of Pentacles - Nurturing determination: This, for me, means to remember that hyperfixation and deep-diving are wonderful qualities!! Like the cat with the maze, keep going until the treat is out of the puzzle! But, I do not need to sacrifice my body, mind, or spirit to do so. I must remember that in order to have steadfast determination I have to take breaks, feed myself, sleep, feed my soul with my favorite television shows, music, and books. The determination to see something through is a marathon, you keep going even when you can't possibly fathom going twenty more miles when you've already done 6. But, if you nourish yourself, you'll look up and see the finish line before you know it.
Two of Pentacles - Seek balance and don't give into pressure to get into agreements or partnerships. I am super guilty of this. As an echoist and someone who get anxiously attached to people, I will over empathize and give them everything I can and end up depleting myself. I have to remember that relationships are recyprocol and if the other person cannot reciprocate the empathy or intimacy in the relationship, it's not a healthy relationship - regardless if it's family, a business partner, or a romantic partner. It takes two to make a relationship and if I am the only one giving effort, it's not my fault if the relationship fades and withers.
The Magician - remember the magic of everyday invention. As someone who struggles with the siren song of routine because of Autism and the allure and hit of novelty, I have spent YEARS (Seriously) trying to create the perfect schedule, routine, etc so that I'm never disappointed. Life evolves, I evolve and my needs evolve and the real joy is in the small changes I make every single day to evolve with my needs. It's the innovation that's the joy, not the discipline.
