05/05/2026
Hello Mrs Kays, Please hide ID.
I’m here to officially say it , being a good girl hazvibhadhare. In fact, it’s a waste of time. Growing up I always thought if I was a good girl, if I didn’t open my legs , that I’d get a good man and be desired. I’m in my early 30s and I believe I’ve reached my breaking point . I even told God chigarai henyu nema plans enyu for marriage when it comes to me coz honestly, I am tired. Growing up they told us go to school get a degree, get your assets and you get a better man, I have done all that to no avail, but if I tell you that I have been single for more than 10 years and no one even approaches me or says hie. All of my friends and acquaintances , even ma friends ma pastors , they were sleeping with each other , but they would tell me kuti ramba munhu anoti anoda kurara newe, but all of them they ended up getting married to each other . Even my friends who are single mothers , men actually fight for their love , and I here wondering what am I really? I have tried to be myself, I have tried to dress like other girls, I have tried to be classy and still noting . Its like people are repulsed by me or they don’t see me at all. And the worst part , people say I am a beautiful girl and that I don’t even need makeup at all. Vaya vanoti pray hard mirai henyu because there is no prayer in the bible that I have not prayed , whether speaking in tongues , whether fasting, everything I have done . At one point I even made a prayer kuti Mwari nipei chero ano cheater hake as long as I have someone, but still nothing. Imagine my parents fought one day bout me not being married zvichinzi anoshaya sei chero ano mitisa hake . My father boldy says I am a failure because handina kuroorwa , he event went to the extendt to bring every muporofita or traditional healer wavanzwa kuti mushandirei abvve pamba aroorwe. My mother recently gave me a timeline zvikanzi by this time unofanira kunge wabva pamba pano , meaning I’m only left with a year. I actually thought parents should be proud of their children for getting a good education ad good behaviour but mine are actually embarrassed by me. A work mate once said I would rather buy a second hand phone than a boxed Nokia 1100 whilst referring to me. What hurts me the most is that I’m actually a really kind and nice person and I have always asked God , if you knew this was going to be my life, why couldn’t you just make a bad bitch with a stone cold heart.
